Stupidity is beautiful

So I seem to have made it worse , all this me trying to push you away made it worse , we’re closer now. I’m scared to touch you but so are you we put these boundaries up that aren’t really boundaries because we’re so close on a spiritual level I guess cause we connect but not really not the type of connection that gives you love but the type of connection that gives you comfort .

I am wrong when I think I have feelings for you because someone else touching you does not matter , someone else loving you does not bother me but someone hurting you does . Like now your falling for someone and I am happy for you I am not mature enough for you . I am a child who just wants to fall in love but I can never express that well enough for someone to love me . There’s Someone I think about ; no not you , she’s different but equally as special I haven’t interacted with her a lot honestly I’ve only had about 5 conversations with her but she’s in my dreams and lurks in my head all the time she’s quite out of my league but I just want to know her .

Stupidity of my emotional turmoil is fading away I’m thinking irrationally but moving on isn’t that beautiful. A good friend is hard to come by so I don’t want to get rid of her right ? So maybe this is a good way to do that moving on but keeping her in my life , realizing that just because I want to love someone doesn’t mean it has to be her . It’s easy for us to confuse feelings for friendships and relationships when we have sexual attraction as a factor .

So she is my friend and my soulmate at that and I have someone else to love but something she gives me stupidity and sometimes I need it I need to laugh and maybe the person I will love will give me that but for now . She is stupidity and she is beautiful.

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